The diary of a doll

23 November, 2005
11:11 a.m.

Don't Pay Mind To The Nutty Doll
Alice Cooper: Poison
Mood:

I find myself blocked from people and things around me, it’s almost like I’m shutting myself down. Ok, not almost. I AM shutting myself down. I wish I knew why exactly but I think it’s just so many things going on and I’m tense and a bit sad. I don’t know what to do really, I’m at a loss. I want to do so much that splitting myself into 20 would probably make the cut but I can’t so I’m a bit stuck. See? I can still be cryptic. Missed me much?

I am most likely, 98% chance likely, going to quit my job. I am sad about this because this in itself is a wonderful job but I have a lot of issues with some of my co-workers, boss included. I can be quite patient with people but some attacks are a bit personal and I just can’t tolerate that.

Now on a personal level, on a personal level things aren’t all that great. I mean I have awesome things going for me, I really do but there’s so much stress that I sometimes feel like going to bed and curling up in a fetal position until things ease up.
On a spiritual level I continue moving but it’s baby steps. I know I don’t do as much as I should but I know I can’t do as much as I should. I’m just not in the best position, I don’t have enough energy and I have to fix other things first. You can’t properly evolve on a spiritual level when you have things you need to solve in this plane. Why? quite simply because you need balance in order to be a whole person which even if some people fail to admit it, is part of the whole spiritual package.

All these things are making me shut down to many things around me. I mean I still have my sense of humor, thankfully because otherwise I wouldn’t be the nicest person around nowadays. Oh dear, maybe I just need to scream at the top of my lungs and hit stuff, well it’s either that or stuff myself with chocolate truffles and at least the whole screaming and hitting doesn’t include calories. Yes I’m vain, so sue me.

Kisses from your vain and loving it devilish diva; Disco Doll

How to make a Tanith_Nyx

Ingredients:

5 parts success

5 parts silliness

1 part energy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little curiosity if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Pain/Pleasure