The diary of a doll

03 August, 2005
11:10 a.m.

So I'm Here
Listening to: H.I.M.: Right Here In My Arms
Mood:

Well helloooooooooooooooo there! Yes I’m still alive.... kinda sorta. You see I’ve been away, not away, away but away from computerland. Why? I needed a break. I still do actually, my schedule right now is packed and I haven’t gotten much sleep. I can tell you one thing though; my eyes look really pretty when they’re all red. So I’ve been keeping myself busy, really busy, too busy. I need vacations!!!

What can I tell you about this time? Err, the world isn’t flat? Although I guess you already knew that. Ah yes, I’m sponsoring a child. She’s a four year old girl (I personally think she’s cute but I’m biased so don’t mind me) and I’ve shown her picture to several people already. I’m worse than a first time mom. “Lookie, lookie, isn’t she cuuuuuuuuuuuuuute? Huh? Huh? Huh? Say she’s cute damnit!!!” I’ll spare you of the bruising... err I mean details.

I fully admit that I’ve been awful. So many people have no clue about what happened and they all deserve an apology but I swear I needed this break. I felt like I was slowly sinking and I can’t do anything for anyone unless I take care of myself first. It was an ugly decision to just not come around anymore, to just not say bye or give any warnings or signs of life but I really needed it. I can’t say I’m a 100% great yet but getting there. The initial separation came with internet messing up both at home and at work (same ISP) but I just took it from there. I felt that if I didn’t do it then and there I wasn’t going to do it. I apologize to all those that needed me or were left just like that. I know I was selfish but since I hadn’t been selfish in a long, really long, time I was literally sinking myself. My energy wasn’t what it should be and my problems were eating me up and oh the drama. I really needed a break. Not to say that I don’t have problems anymore or that all of the sudden I’ve become super-girl but I’m recharging. In a way I’m sad but what I did but sometimes you just have to make these kind of decisions. As soon as my schedule makes some sense again (I have 12 hr. shifts because they’re giving us some courses at work) I’ll be back.

Ah I leave you with a picture of the girl I sponsor, her name is Victoria. You didn’t think you were going to get saved from that now did you? Here she is

Kisses from your utterly-insane-but-with-a-soft-spot devilish diva; Disco Doll

The Road Less Traveled
B:

size="2">You take the Road Less
Traveled. Who
wants to go where everyone else has already gone
anyway? You look for the hidden
paths, ones most don't see and don't care to
venture down. You go boldly and
stand proud discontent with what's been put in
front of you, determined to find
a way perfect for you even no one else will take it
with you. You live as you
want and not for others, but be careful not become
selfish. Others may need you
and you should be there for them, especially the
ones close to you. You tend to
be the leader in most situations and people listen
and trust you not lead them
astray. Your firm in your opinions and beliefs and
unwilling to change yourself
to suit other people. By the same token, you can be
stubborn to a fault, change
isn't always a bad thing you know. Everyone changes
and grows, you shouldn't try
to stay exactly the same or you could be left
behind. Then again, you may change
frequently. Some people change to fit in, you my
little non-conformist, may
change to be set apart. It's great to be different,
but it's also just as great
to have things in common with people, even if those
people are in that "crowd"
you seem to have a vendetta against. Don't try to
be different, just be who you
are, whoever that is and you'll be unique all on
your own. So make some time for
people, let yourself blend into the crowd every
once in awhile, you may just
learn something about them and yourself you never
knew before.

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