The diary of a doll

21 January, 2005
8:54 p.m.

Damn Dland
Listening to: London After Midnight: Psycho Magnet
Mood:

Frustratiiiiing I can't even look at my diary. Why oh why are you doing this to me dland oh why? I'm in code red can't you at least be nice to me for that reason? Well hopefully it will work now since I've hit that damn link I don't know how many times. It seems I can't be gone for a while, can I?

Anyway I swear I was going to update earlier in the week but I just couldn't. No time or energy or whatever. I was going to make a beautiful entry on the awfulness of code red but I doubt many want to read about that. So lets see.... damn I had a good topic but then dland came around and since my diary isn't working it just ruined it. I sooooooo want to curse right now and bitch about how much I hate it when it screws up and how Andy the mighty God of dland likes playing with our heads. Why Andy oh whyyyyyyy? Ah nevermind, I remember some of the topic now.

So see I've been noticing that some kids ummmm really like me? Ok so they aren't kids they are teens, say around 15 to 17. They look at me and smile all shyly and turn around and look at me again and smile again. I just want to turn around and say "hey gerg erm.... I mean err... hey you, yeah. There's this really cute girl standing just a few steps away from you and she looks all dreamy when she looks at you. Stop messing around and ask her out, I'm too old for you and even more so I am to messed up for you dear." You see I'm used to dating older guys, have been doing so ever since started dating so even for another guy my age I'm way too complicated when it comes to relationships due to the fat that I'm used to the way things are handled with someone older. Hint: Older doesn't mean more mature just more issues. I've never dated a teen and even if I was the right age I wouldn't know what the hell to do with one. I honestly wish at times that when I was around 16 the guys would've said that I was too young for them instead of the old "you are so mature for your age" speech. Really, maybe I was and I did look older but maybe it would've also been nice to date someone my age back then. That's something I skipped and I'm far from being interested in that now but back then I think it would've been nice. Ok, enough ranting. I hope my diary starts working now.

Kisses from your devilish diva; Disco Doll

~Aphrodite~ You embody what most humans imagine
when they think of "Goddess"; women
envy you, men are attracted to you. You are
loving, caring, and beautiful, and have an aura
of sensuality and passion, with an almost
inborn instinct of how to use your assets to
your advantage. Be careful, though: with any
power comes the temptation to misuse it, and
this is a power that will fade with time.
Don't rely on your beauty alone to get you
through life, or you will find that your life
will essentially be over after the age of
thirty. Which doesn't mean at all that you
shouldn't enjoy it while it lasts...*grins*

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