The diary of a doll

12 January, 2005
2:36 p.m.

Violence is wrong, right?
Listening to: VNV Nation: Darkangel (Gabriel)
Mood:

Yeay I'm alive!! Woohoo! Ok so I've been slacking on updates a bit but I'm not at an all-time low.... I think. My mood right now is cranky, I don't have a chip on my shoulder but I wouldn't mind giving one to someone. I don't know why the hell I feel like this I just want to.... ok I wont get graphic but my imagination is running rampant here. Lets see, what has been going on. Oh yes, I'm up to one more marriage proposal, I guess that doesn't really place me in a good mood. Although generally speaking I should be flattered well I'm not. I want to thwap that guy or shake him until he regains his senses. The thought is quite delightful actually but I will refrain from doing so because I don't even want to see the guy, much less touch him. He has the cooties now!!! I know, I can be so incredibly mature at times.

Seriously though, why? Yeah some of you must be going "oh yeah boohoo, she got a marriage proposal.... that bitch!" But you see, he just ruined the friendship. It was a cool friendship too and for fuck's sake we haven't even dated, kissed not even held freaking hands!!! We live in the same city and nothing has happened, can't he get a clue?? I care for him, he's a wonderful guy and any girl that gets him is going to be incredibly lucky but NOT ME! Ok... I should relax now. I needed to vent. I just didn't wake up in the best of moods and things got worse.

I need vacations, I really need vacations. I'm not a big fan of the beach but right now it sounds like such a nice idea, not like I need to suntan if I go anyway. I just want to be there, forget about the world and listen to the waves, the sound of the sea has always been soothing for me. The best time to listen to the sea is a bit before the sunrise when everything's grey and you can be lying down comfortably without anyone bothering you. I know too much about this, don't I? I should go back to ranting about life, the world and men that can't think properly. So yeah.... woe is me, I hate the world yadda yadda. Actually sometimes I do hate the world but right now I feel a lot better so I don't feel anything resembling that. I promise next time I want to hit someone I'll try to stick to that subject.

Kisses from your slightly more relaxed devilish diva; Disco Doll

Satanic Evil: When you walk into a room all eyes
are on you, you're the dark heart of the scene.
You seem to have so much power about you people
naturally gravitate toward you. You can't blame
them though; your dramatic good looks attract
men like moths to a flame. You're often found
studying ancient books of rites than clubbing.
Solitude is not a preference its a way of life,
how else would you get time to think? You seem
to be on a mission to the top, not letting
anything get in your way. Which strikes people
as selfish and cruel as they slowly get to know
you, they don't realise that you dont give a
damn about whom you hurt so long as you've
inflicted so much pain they never interfere
again. You wear your black leather corset and
pointy boots tight and accent the rest of your
body depending on your mood. Your motto is
"Mind your own damn business"

What is your style of Gothic Beauty?

Pain/Pleasure