The diary of a doll

04 January, 2005
11:05 p.m.

Venting
Listening to: The 69 Eyes: Don't Turn Your Back On Fear
Mood:

Well New Year's party was great, I have no clue at what time I went to sleep but the sun was high in the sky by then. I have something to admit, I've been feeling strange recently. I can't quite put my finger on it. I'm happy, I'm doing a lot of the things I want and working on expanding that. Everything all in all is great but I still feel something weird. Maybe it's all I've cried each time I see news about the tsunamis which in the end has been quite a lot. I doubt it though because it started some time before that. Maybe it's true that I need some vacations. I don't really put any pressure in what I'm feeling because well sooner or later I'll know what it is and when I do I'll just solve it. That's the way I always deal with things like this.

I should probably give you all happier news. For (insert deity here)'s sake it's the start of a new year. And it's not that I'm sad or anything there's just something that I can't quite put my finger on. The reason I haven't brought it up with anyone is because I really don't want to discuss it so in case anyone reads this that likes to know more about this kind of things please I'm just venting. I need to vent at times, I think we all do. On the other hand I noticed that I'm doing what I've always done in the past when something arises, I listen to a hell of a lot of music. I think it eases my nerves quite well and enables me to think idly. I don't know if anyone else does this my guess is they do.

I think I'll change the topic before I go get a rubber knife and get all angsty. I'm not old but I believe I'm old enough to stay away from having a chip in my shoulder. So cheery news... erm... I'm confident in my future. That for me is cheery at least. Knowing that whatever happens I'm going to be ok, maybe it's being overly optimistic but that's just how it feels. Some say we all need to believe in something, well I believe in two things. These two things are probably the basis of my whole life actually. One, I should live the life to the max both the good and the bad times. Two, no matter what happens in the end I'm going to be alright. I have proven myself that I have more lives than a cat and even if I sometimes tumble a bit I always manage to fall on my feet. Ah the deepness of this entry. I better leave before I start discussing free will versus predetermined destiny. I already did that earlier today with myself while I was waiting for my net connection to work properly.

Kisses from your "dazed and confused for so long it's not true" devilish diva; Disco Doll

Vampire:
Vampires are dead human beings who walk the earth.
They are often characterized by fanged teeth
pale skin and unearthly eyes. You have a short
fuse. You know what you want and you will use
almost any means to get there. However, you
probably have a soft spot when it comes to the
one you love. You tend to be possesive of
those you love and they will never escape you.

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