The diary of a doll

25 August, 2004
9:42 p.m.

Too Much Energy
Listening to: Malice Mizer: Gardenia
Mood:

Has anyone ever noticed how much energy is drained by being insecure? I'm serious here, just think about it. If you're insecure think about all the times you look at the mirror trying to find that one imperfection. Or what about all that energy you spend telling yourself just how awful you look? Or the one you spend trying to tell yourself how great you look because you feel so awful? Just thinking about it makes me tired. Plus all this for what? What do you gain from being insecure?

Honestly being someone that feels secure about themselves seems way more practical. That way you can spend that extra energy formerly spent on putting yourself down in more interesting things like pottery!!! Ok maybe not pottery but maybe doing something you have been wanting to do for a long time, say.... ok I can only think of pottery right now for some weird reason. Oh, what about taking singing lessons? Maybe going out with your friends for a bit or cuddling with someone. Of course if you have a thing for pottery well then go for it but it's personally not my cup of tea.

Pottery aside though I really do think that insecurity takes away energy and chances. Maybe if you were a bit more secure of yourself you would've tried to hook up with that person you liked so much. Maybe you could get a better job that makes you happier or just all in all be happier. How can one expect to be happy if one is not happy with one's self? I hate talking in third person but you know what I mean.

You have to realize just how special you are. You need to see that you have a lot to give and that it's up to you to give it and who you give it to. You have to learn to look at the mirror and like what you see, accept it. If there's anything you're not comfortable with then work on it but don't over do it. Becoming obsessive about one thing usually ends up wrong. Learn to love yourself because no matter what happens you're stuck with yourself for the rest of your life.

Kisses from your devilish diva; Disco Doll

PS. Before you say anything, I don't want pottery classes.

Jezebel

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