The diary of a doll

18 August, 2004
8:55 p.m.

Keeping it to yourself?
Listening to: Incubus Succubus: Vampyre Erotica
Mood:

It's funny how people seldom talk with those that are not like minded, especially if they're from an alternative lifestyle or subculture. I think there are two reasons this happens. First of, it's sometimes hard to find topics that aren't necessarily related to our lifestyle or beliefs. Second, it's even harder to find people that are open-minded enough not to react negatively to many things. It should be easy to get along with other people but it isn't when the others start preaching you with anything from religions beliefs to psychological ones.

Ultimately you are the owner of your own life and you chose how to spend it even if it isn't the best choice at times. If a friend or family member sees you immerse in a circle of self-destruction it's normal for them to react in a way where they wish to help you. Sometimes this works and others the person chooses to stay in that path of self-destruction because lets face it, it's not over until the person really decides it. Other times though there are things that are not bad but they are sometimes seen with a negative connotation. This can be anything from what you eat to what you believe. It's at this point where people sometimes stop talking to most people and just immerse themselves within a community of like-minded people.

Honestly, who wants to be told on a daily basis just how wrong they are? I know I don't want to be judged due to my beliefs and lifestyle even though they're both quite outside of the mainstream. Because of many choices I have made regarding to what I want to do with my life and how I want to spend it I've been target of my fair share of rejection and aggression. Many things I don't say as openly all the time not because I'm ashamed of them but because I want to spare me a bad time. Thankfully nowadays I'm starting to accept a lot of things regarding who I am and what I want. It sounds easy but it isn't always that easy when it's outside the norm and you know the negative connotations people that are close to you see in your choices. I still have made these choices because I want to live a full life even if that means not sharing everything with them.

Kisses from your devilish diva; Disco Doll

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