The diary of a doll

12 August, 2004
8:45 p.m.

Judgement and what not
Listening to: H.I.M.: Gone With The Sin
Mood:

Ok, this is the third time I start an entry and just erase what I have written so you just stick with what I write this time around. Does anyone else do that by the way? Start writing an entry and even sometimes almost finish it when you decide you don't like it and just delete it. So, does anyone else do this? Maybe I'm weird by doing this but then again I never claimed sanity. That's something funny actually I have never been very welcome in places where the average person goes but when it comes to something out of the mainstream I've never had problems.

Good topic. Why do people discriminate people outside of the mainstream? Really I have never been in the same kind of situations from people in subcultures. None have ever been aggressive or mean, well not more than your usual girl sometimes being a bitch and guys still trying to get into your pants. Still, I've only been sexually harassed and overly bullied by "normal" people. Maybe the difference is that I've never been one of those people and for some years now I've been mostly involved in subcultures. Maybe if I had been a teeny bopper I would've been bullied by some of the friends I have had.

I have seen pagans, satanists, atheists, etc. openly pick on Christians but that has only been after they were picked on themselves. Come one I even received an online exorcism by a couple of Christians. Don't you think that's pushing things a bit? I'm not saying two wrongs make one right but having been there I know that sometimes you have to pick back or else things get nasty. Who am I kidding, they usually get nasty anyhow. Why can't people just accept other people? I know I haven't always accepted other people and I should know better. My first reaction is sometimes a defensive one even when I tend to be one of the most laid back people when it comes to accepting others. The reason I sometimes react in a defensive way before knowing if I should or not is out of experience. When you have been through the same rejection due to how you are over and over again you don't react very kindly afterwards. You should though because nothing guarantees that you'll go through the same thing but if you do you later scold yourself. You should have known better. I admittedly don't trust people generally speaking but maybe I should give them a bit of a grip; no trusting but a bit more accepting.

Kisses from your sometimes-can-make-a-bit-of-sense devilish diva; Disco Doll

PS. I have also been friends with Christians by the way, sure they were GLBT but Christians nonetheless.