The diary of a doll

27 June, 2004
8:33 p.m.

And now they say they're bad...
Listening to: H.I.M.: Beautiful (Rock Version)
Mood:

To the messages I've received: yes my knee is better, thank you for asking.

There's this gossip going on that one of the Olsen twins has an eating disorder. Naturally as every single time that there's this kind of gossip going on they are passing several thingies about how Hollywood (baaaad bad Hollywood) pressures actresses to be thin. They tell the story of this actress that wanted to loose weight so she stopped eating and started taking anfetamins. They also say how that other actress that was a size two went down to size zero because she constantly got told she looked fat. They mention all the diets, pills, exercises and all the pressure and then they show the woman that have stood up against it. They show a successful Queen Latifah and an smiling Oprah and they go on and on and on about how bad all of this is. Then a month later no one remembers a thing until scandal comes up again.

Ok, can someone explain me how that works? So it's boofuckinghoo when someone notices that we're screwing up people and when we aren't then why stop? All day long, every single day you constantly get told by the media that you should be skinny and if you're not skinny then you're not half as good looking as you could be. People (not just females although it is where most of this problem is located) fall in and out of eating disorders, they over-exercise and try to have the perfect body that doesn't exist unless you starve, exercise and go under the knife. Even with all of that to look a 100% perfect you have to have a good photographer and to brush off some minor imperfections with a picture program. But you, oh you mere mortal you have to look great without the paint program. You have to be thin and with the perfect smile.

That is until a celebrity comes up with a serious eating disorder, then we make a couple of programs against the perfect and unrealistic standards. It reminds me of how a mob boss after committing crime after crime and maybe even getting rid of one or two people just go to church and voila they become perfect little angels with the doors of heaven wide open for them.

When I have kids I don't want that for them. My mother suffered from eating disorders when she was young and so did I. I don't want that to continue onto another generation. I don't want to come home one day to find my daughter locked up in a bathroom throwing her guts out down into the toilet. I don't want her to undergo an extreme diet and start exercising like a maniac to obtain a body that doesn't exist. I don't want her to get obsessive over her weight to the point of almost having a break-down if she gains a bit of weight. I want her to be healthy and love her body no matter how she looks and to not give a fuck about trends. I want her to go on happily through life just enjoying how beautiful she can be. I want her to look at herself in the mirror and see her true self, not a distorted version of it. Still nowadays that seems to be an almost impossible thing to ask for if you let a little girl out into the world.

Kisses from your devilish and bitchy diva; Disco Doll